Prince Charming and I laid in bed last night in each other’s arms after the kids had gone to sleep. I have been battling an excruciatingly painful headache from the blood loss. And even though I was so tired, I couldn’t sleep.
My pulse was loud in my ears and it would increase with my movements. I’m suffering physically and emotionally, and I don’t know what to do. As I laid in my husband’s arms, the thing that weighed on my mind was our baby boy needed a name. From the moment we found out we were expecting this time, Prince Charming was sure it was a boy. (Having three girls first, my thought in every pregnancy is I’m having a girl, until we know for sure.) So I leaned over to him, and asked him what he thought our baby boy’s name should be. He said confidently, “Isaac.” He had mentioned the name Isaac several times when we would talk baby names. We decided after our second son was born, all of our sons’ middle names would be the same after him. So it was decided in each other’s arms as more tears began to fall……we said his name out loud….Isaac Cristofer.
Baby Isaac Cristofer will forever be remembered and a part of us. My heart will ache and grieve him for as long as I live.
We will continue to devote ourselves to serving our Lord, and raising these six amazing children with a heart to bring God glory. We will be reunited with our two babies in heaven one day, and we await that day!
God is guiding our lives. Nothing is out of His control. We are surrendered to Him.
He answers prayer, and as I write this post, knowing those who are praying for me/us….I want it to be known the headache I have been suffering with is gone. It is another testimony to His care for us, His work through the prayers of His people.
I wanted to close with a letter to my baby, but I realized I am not strong enough to do that yet. I will close with a Scripture our pastor’s wife gave me today.
“You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you. Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord, the Lord himself, is the Rock eternal.”